Beauty in Strength
“Watch this video,” said the cute CrossFit boy from Indiana.
I loved everything they said, but one line in the video really hit home. Jackie shared, “I was just trying to be skinny…It wasn’t getting me anywhere.”
That is exactly how felt. Finally, I stopped worrying about being skinny and just focused on what I do have control over: eating clean, lifting, sleeping properly and drinking enough water.
My weight goals now don’t involve me on a scale, but they do involve calculating how much weight I am putting on a bar.
Watching all these beautiful and strong women inspired me to love my body too and find my own strength again. Maybe one day I would rock my own short shorts like Jackie Perez.
It wasn’t till just prior to this year’s CrossFit Open that I decided I wasn’t going to wait on being a certain weight before rocking those shorts.
So I marched myself into Lululemon and bought my first pair of “Jackie” shorts and wear them on days when I need a little extra inspiration and motivation.
With my second CrossFit Open approaching, I decided I was going to channel my inner Jackie in my new favorite work out shorts.
I felt sexy. I felt strong. I no longer cared what other people thought of me.
Do I have a Jackie body? Of course not. I am not delusional. However, I sure as hell am proud of what my body has not only accomplished over the last two years, but over the course of my lifetime. Why would I hide that from the world?
Who cares if I have cellulite or a little belly? I am healthy and strong; that is all that should matter.
I love my little pink shorts because it reminds me that I no longer need to give a damn what the rest of the world thinks of my body. All that matters is that I respect it, care for it and love it unconditionally.
I’m not skinny.
I’m not fat.
I’m a CrossFit athlete. Now THAT is beautiful.