Mexico is not the first place you would mention in a discussion over where the most elite athletes come from, and that is mainly because we are not a health concerned country; where I come from, fitness is not a part of our every day life nor our education. I had struggled with my weight all my life; even If I was never an obese person, I always felt insecure about my body. I was constantly beating myself up because I felt trapped, imprisoned and held back by it. I had self esteem, anger and depression issues; but more than anything, there was this overwhelming feeling deep inside of me: i just wasn’t good enough, and by that I mean, I wasn’t living up to my own expectations. I would have traded my body and my life with anyone without hesitation. Then I found crossfit.
I remember my first weeks at crossfit as a group therapy, there were people from all ages and very different physiques: tall and thin, tall and heavy, short and skinny, short and stocky, you know, just the most random bunch of people putting in the effort to be better. This is one of the aspects of crossfit that still continues to amaze me. You have in any given moment at a box, women, children, men, teenagers and senior citizens from all sorts of different backgrounds, mindsets and goals, all coming in and working out together.
I think this is what makes people come back day after day to their box, this community that empowers you and never lets you quit. We are all committed to each other and ourselves to push harder, to keep going, because we know that each work out is a test, a challenge, and it is by facing our limitations and fears through these workouts that we come out stronger and more confident, loosing our fear of failure. This is how we grow, how we leave our past selves behind each day and become a better version of ourselves.
On my first couple of months I could not even do a single pull up, not even with the thickest elastic band. I struggled every day and every wod. Talented or gifted are definitely not the words I would use to describe myself as an athlete, but hard working would be suiting. I stuck to my training and committed to eating healthy and getting enough rest and results started coming along. I went from being the worse at every movement and the last one to finish the workouts to training with the fittest in my box and keeping up with their pace to eventually becoming one of the fittest there and setting a pace of my own.
I stand now, after a year and a few months of crossfit, as the best me I have ever been. I do not stand alone, along side me are the people who started just like me, right at the bottom, and are now realizing what an amazing potential we all have as human beings. I believe in them, and them in me.
I have just started coaching and its an amazing feeling when someone who has never done crossfit comes in and I see them struggle and suck so bad at it, because I was, and in a lot of ways still am, just like them. They try and try and get frustrated and start to lose interest but that’s when I push them the hardest and they rally up and keep going and suddenly they are back into it and they start going harder and getting really excited. It is right then that I can see the same fire in them that fueled me all the way here. We are all in this road together, but we fight alone, its the only way we can shed everything that drags us and comes between who we are and who we want to be. I recognize the will to fight themselves and come out on top. And that is a truly amazing feeling that goes deeper than crossfit, it is a connection between people.
So it doesn’t matter if you have been working out for years or only a few days, keep going, keep setting goals for yourself and work your ass off to get there, I have faith in you, in them and me. I have faith in all of us. We are becoming the best we can be.